Not sure what to think.
Posted: Thu Jun 23, 2011 11:46 am
Hi. I’m new here but I guess what I’m talking about isn’t for me. However it’s not something I think I ever fully understood and if I could or even should be labelled as incontinent
To give some background I’m 25 and sense last year I have been fighting crohn’s but I’m also Dyspraxic and because of it I could have Aspergers as well but that was something I’ve never been tested for. Sense around this time last year though I started messing myself in public due to the bowel trouble and from November I have been wearing diapers. Much of that time has been 24/7
Sense 1st having it flare up I have managed to start getting things under control illness wise thanks to medical help and I do have less full on accidents these days, but often if I need to go it will feel very urgent and I have to go as I can hold on very little now.
I do notice as well however that I may have bladder issues as well. Sometimes if nervous or laughing too much I will wet myself and I notice with the diaper, even on max thickness diapers that wetness markers go pretty blue around where I hang so to speak. Even if I shake off and wait a little this always happens and say I’m leaking and normal underwear can get uncomfortable by the evening time. Sometimes at random I’ll have the same heavy urges as I do with my bowels.
Despite this though and wearing diapers for months, I feel insecure about it. Not so much wearing protection and what if people find out but if I’m wearing too much for what’s wrong. I mean could I be fine just needing insert pads or something. At the same time If I can mark a diaper without fully wetting it I don’t know if pads are really going to do their job well. I do feel that diapers have been a big help these last few months as I’ve been able to get on with things in my life much better then for a very long time. For what I am describing am I incontinent or maybe even how incontinent am I. Does it seem likely that I’ll always need some form of protection?
It’s not something I feel ashamed of, but this isn’t the way I expected things would be.
To give some background I’m 25 and sense last year I have been fighting crohn’s but I’m also Dyspraxic and because of it I could have Aspergers as well but that was something I’ve never been tested for. Sense around this time last year though I started messing myself in public due to the bowel trouble and from November I have been wearing diapers. Much of that time has been 24/7
Sense 1st having it flare up I have managed to start getting things under control illness wise thanks to medical help and I do have less full on accidents these days, but often if I need to go it will feel very urgent and I have to go as I can hold on very little now.
I do notice as well however that I may have bladder issues as well. Sometimes if nervous or laughing too much I will wet myself and I notice with the diaper, even on max thickness diapers that wetness markers go pretty blue around where I hang so to speak. Even if I shake off and wait a little this always happens and say I’m leaking and normal underwear can get uncomfortable by the evening time. Sometimes at random I’ll have the same heavy urges as I do with my bowels.
Despite this though and wearing diapers for months, I feel insecure about it. Not so much wearing protection and what if people find out but if I’m wearing too much for what’s wrong. I mean could I be fine just needing insert pads or something. At the same time If I can mark a diaper without fully wetting it I don’t know if pads are really going to do their job well. I do feel that diapers have been a big help these last few months as I’ve been able to get on with things in my life much better then for a very long time. For what I am describing am I incontinent or maybe even how incontinent am I. Does it seem likely that I’ll always need some form of protection?
It’s not something I feel ashamed of, but this isn’t the way I expected things would be.